Of Marriage.Of Family

I came home rather excited tonight unlike the rest of the days. My husband will come for a visit and is arriving at midnight tomorrow so I would stop counting days anymore. I cant complain much about today's work since it was not an entirely busy day. We had a chance for chit chats and side conversations which make work much lighter and less stressful. We got to smile.I found an interesting book sitting by the shelf in our living and started reading it at the train on my way home. I am not a bookworm,but my recollection tells me that at one time I was a Sweet Valley High fanatic, read two novels of John Grisham, and read the all time --Gone with the wind. I have attempted to get interested a couple of times ,those written by Coelho or that Japanese author, and some others because they were all famous and widely read, but I'd stop after a few chapters, I lost the enthusiasm.Yet today, -I suddenly went way past Chapter three and that is ---something!

The house were all lit up as I opened the door.Those yellowish lights were always adding drama to the room and the fancy chandeliers hanging by the dining room makes the house more of a home than that being rented plain flat for quarters. My room mates were done with dinner though the plates were still at the table. They are in the middle of a serious conversation. I joined them a few minutes after as my stomach was inviting me for supper. We are having fish today. Yes, I screamed silently. I have been craving for fish very lately and it was served just in time to fulfill it. I sensed I already have an idea of what topic was, and I am right.

I wouldn't probably elaborate the very details tonight's tete a tete but this boils down to family matters. Marriage in itself is a family.It is a sacred thing that needs perpetual faith towards one direction. When betrayals come along the way, which becomes a trend ironically,either one amongst each partner always thrive to withstand it though some are really irreparable. Like most men, have this kind of disease to yield to temptations very easily,---and now I'm sure they will disagree. You are welcome disprove my theory though.

When you get married and bear children, your entire self changes.The definition of life is structured within the future of your kids and that instinct to see tomorrow in their eyes. Each time they call you "mama" gives an automatic job and responsibility of their well being. When they smile, they talk, or say I love you sheepishly suddenly becomes your point of interest. Their achievement in school, or when people praise or correct them in a way, is a manifestation of how you groomed them as parents. You turn to be their leaning walls as they grow.

Family is important. It is responsible in the formation of our own behavior. It instills innate characteristics different from others, of our self esteem, of how we aspire things, of the presence of love and support from your parents strengthens that personality,and the lack of it. Yet, this is ideal. I am not entirely proving that what we are now, is what our family was,
but trust me, most people become what they are now because we are a living shadow of the intangible things carried out from our parents.

I didn't grow in a perfect family. When I say perfect,I portray them as 'family that prays together, stay together' thingy.
However, we have a common vision about how to live our life to the most. My parents taught this through example as we grow. Our hesitation about many things are because we were not give enough encouragement at home. Our strength to accomplish our dreams are because we get that push and appreciation from those influential in our life.

Quite frankly, this was the first time we ever got to talk personal and I like it. This gives us, as friends and room mates , that bond to care for each other while we live in one roof. You get to appreciate their sincere effort to comfort you. I may have dealt my own trials alone which made me stronger to my own belief, and my friend here, may go another kind as compared to mine, but still at the end of the day we aim to make sure that our family is protected no matter what. And there will also come a time that everything that is now, is just part of that past, and you smile.

It's almost reaching midnight and time flew without us knowing it.Everyone went to repose as it is another day ahead in a few hours.
And yes I went to bed feeling excited for tomorrow.