Bursting the bubbles

I was caught off guard.The day started really quite well.

---nothing without you

it's the quiet night that breaks me. I cannot stand the sight of this familiar place. it's the quiet night that breaks me, like a dozen papercuts that only I can trace. all my books are lying useless now. all my maps will only show me how to lose my way. oh call my name. you know my name. and in that sound, everything will change. tell me it won't always be this hard. I am nothing without you, but I don't know who you are. it's the crowded room that breaks me: everybody looks so luminous, and strangely young. it's the crowded room that's never heard. no one here can say a word of my native tongue. I can't be among them anymore. I fold myself away before it burns me numb. oh call my name. you know my name. and in your love, everything will change. tell me it won't always be this hard. I am nothing without you, but I don't know who you are.

Tit-for-Tat

..I wish I could just snap off the time a little bit.I didn' realized how much she has actually ruined my day again!

Political Lies

Fence sitter.I think that's one of the safest side if you hate controversies.If your swimming at it, probably, you need to be one hundred percent careful of what word to use to describe someone especially. The other day, I was sitted by one of my boss while fidgeting his smoke.I vested myself in an oversized jacket so that Mr Marlboro wont overpower my Gucci. This time, I guess I didn't really have any choice to decline the spontaneous invitation. I was really busy completing my audits until he came to my station. I practically knew already that there is a reason why he wants me to walk with him in the smoking lounge for he knew all along I don't smoke, at least I assume.
My mind was already running through his face and foreseeing how this little vis a vis would end up. Like I expected, it wasn't because he wanted my company. He wants my presence as he condescendingly puffs the cigar, while I vehemently inhale it secretly because he needs some information from me. I honestly felt he could've just called me up in his office, in both our luxury of comfortable seats sans cigarette smoke.What he wanted was no extraordinary albeit this was the first time I am being solicited about someone's management style or acting prowess as a leader to us. It felt a little bit awkward because we had other frequents juxtaposed. Eavesdropping is a knack for others to easily spread gossips. I tried to be really tact in declaiming what I have personally experienced. He tried to gauge my style by comparing to other three leaders even on a higher position that what I currently assume and said to myself "Why compare!"
I gave him the most safest answers and details sent via email. Why didn't he just asked it on an email to begin with?

--thin like hair strands

Time just runs swiflty.My youngest daughter is turning three in four months.She's so smart and adorable yet equally naughty to the point that I lose my temper.A total opposite nature of her elder sister. Sometimes, I feel extremely guilty whenever I get to reprimand her when she gets so unruly. The little time I get to spend with her at home are filled with my patience growing thinner.

-the unproven theory of randomness

I was tongue tied. I just spoke with my best buddy for an hour almost five minutes ago.My anger and disappoinment was rising like a tide, my teeth clenching adamantly.She narrated the story in feigned bravado.In my vivid recollection, I can feel how difficult it is to go through it alone. When crying in the middle of the night when no one can hear your sobs.Neither anyone understands.It's sadly coming through me again.The excruciating dilemna of surviving by your own when no one else sincerely cares.
It was shocking for me to hear what he's done with her. They have been civil and educated people when tehy fight. No calling of names. No swearing. but earlier turned the table upside down.I was too angry for her. Men are alike.

--a slice of cake. my natal-lity

In the midst of my hectic week of training including the real time implementation, I suddenly got a day off for my birthday.I dont want to expect anything special anymore., but he tried to make me happy by waking me up at exactly 12midnight with a slice of cake and a lighted candle.

That was sweet!