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here i am again., wallowing over seas of uncontrollable envy and drown on seas of what-if's. i abhor that feeling.though, it was not affecting another person...whenever i check on pictures, i always end up telling myself.."i could be there too." but what am i doing about it.
back during childhood, i would fancy the idea of lying down over the crystalline snow donned heavily with an oversized thermal jacket,cool boots and ear muffs..
i would also imagine pictures of me on such different places on my back drop.
oh..so i heave a sigh.
I feel like these are just hypothetically coming into my lavish dreams,,and reality of making it happen is just so elusive.